-Home- RANT

I'm not even gonna try and spit this in a form of a poem... I'm just gonna say it the way i feel with nothing holding me back.

Each time i spend another day or month here, I begin to feel less like at home and more alone, it's a way I felt for awhile but the longer I spend here the more I feel like I lose myself and less people, friends even, don't really get me. I stand alone and now it becomes more apparent that I got only my self to count on and rely on. Sometimes I wish I had more of the strength to drift away and actually be on my own rather than being here questioning people trust, loyality and friendship. I now understand why sometimes I hang with the wrong crowd, that same wrong crowd would stand up for me, shared the same view and value and understood what stand on the line. If I was in deep shit and I needed a hand to reach for I know people like FURI and Zeco and the whole PTC crew with have me. People out here dont get that. I am from a different world but I understand that. I'D KILL A MOTHER FUCKER FOR TRYING TO ROB ME OR TAKE MY SHIT, MY LIFE, THAT I WORK FOR. THAT I PUT MY MOTHER FUCKING TIME IN, MY SWEAT. WHY SHOULD I LIKE SOME NIGGA WITH A KNIFE OR A GAT TRY TO TAKE WHAT I WORK SO FUCKING HARD FOR FROM ME? WHY???! THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN THE 4TH TIME IN LIFE I'D GET JACKED AND I WONT I SWEAR ON MY LIFE I WONT. ITS MY LIFE I HAVE A PATH AND A ROAD TO GO ON AND NO ONE ON THIS MOTHER FUCKING EARTH WILL STOP ME. So fuck you for tying to jack me, fuck you for trying to eye gaze, and fuck you for trying to sizing me up. FUCK YOU. NO one who hasnt been in this position will ever no what its like. NO ONE WHO HAS NEVER GOTTEN JUMPED, BEAT UP, ROBBED OR PRESS UP WILL EVER KNOW WHAT IT FEELS, WHAT ITS LIKE. I am not a victim not anymore. I'm not the bully nor am I the one getting bullied, I'm the one in the middle.

to be contuined...